Hello and welcome to a very small Month in Review, a Micro Month in Review.
Alright, let’s get micro!
At the turn of the month I was slated to upgrade from a splint to a full blown cast. My broken ankle is doing well and I’m scheduled for the cast removal at the end of March.
However, I had anticipated that this cast would be a transition point to finally returning to doing some work. Boy was I wrong. The cast has been very tight, in-fact the first cast I got had a wrinkle in the ankle joint that felt like a wedge was constantly jammed into it. Moving onto the 2nd one after a very scary and distressing night things were “better”… but it’s proven to still be a bit difficult to manage. Unless I have my ankle at chest height and as chilled as the ambient air in the room will get it, my foot swells and starts to get crushed by the cast. Turns out there’s such a thing as: “Cast Claustrophobia”, as well as pressure-ulcers, among other injuries that can happen from the shape of the cast, and how you move while using one… Even a small discomfort that ramps up can become panic inducing when you realize that you may have to wait 10 hours in the ER, or all weekend until, you can access a cast technician (nurse).
So much for my assumptions about the cast liberating me from my month long bed-locked lifestyle.
This has been a good learning point for many things.
This is a great example of what it means for plans to not go to plan. My plans for my work schedule went up in smoke, alongside my return to work plans. This has complete changed how I need to look at my work and output, knowing I’m falling 2 months behind.
Seeing how these setbacks can eat so far into my time makes me really want to reconsider what things take what amount of work to realize.
Being on the outside of my work and rhythm I’ve had the chance to think about all my dormant project ideas from long past. Some were just kiddish fantasies around extremely complex game ideas that fed into the future passion I’ve had in videogame development, but others were truly valid ideas. Something that many people encounter in their lifetime, having too many game ideas for the time you could ever commit to realize them.
One project had stood out to me, however. A smaller scoped mobile game based in the Some People’s Kids IP. A project that just uses tapping, dragging, and holding for the entirety of the systems. It has a systemic basis which has been moreso what my brain has been stuck in as of late, and would be something far more tight in scale and scope than any of my projects to date. It was one I had already written a design doc, and drawn up diagrams, for in the past.
Stay tuned on that. (Because I’m still bed-locked and deeply uncomfortable…)
And the next lesson? Morale…
I was fairly high spirited starting this month, with all this broken ankle stuff going on, and how I was handling things. But dragged over amonth, with another on the horizon has been utterly crushing my spirit.
Pressure points all over my leg from the first few days of the first splint onward has left me with my minds eye on my leg for the vast majority of my time out. It’s painful, overwhelming, and really obstructs my ability to think clearly.
The upheaval to my lifestyle has completely derailed any momentum I’ve had in regards to good-habits, leaving me stinky, gross, and just off. The sedentary nature of being bed-locked has made me incredibly weak, and really uncomfortable all over the rest of my body.
And the boredom of not being able to focus on anything stimulating, and not being able to do my normal things I love to occupy my time with, has driven me to break my 2 year social media sobriety. What a time we’re in… holy cow.
All the above has left me so crushed. This has made it incredibly hard to position myself to actually gear into things that have been coming up. Helping a colleague, hosting my next months meetup, seeing any friends… I can’t or won’t because I’m weak, fatigued, and not confident in myself.
So much bleh.
You can’t always expect to be in high spirits. That sometimes contributes to things not going to plan.
In Conclusion
So with that said. I leave you for another month. Looking towards improving everything that has been hitting me, as I can. I have tackled this Month in Review for one. You always gotta keep on keeping on.
I hope you all have a great March! I’ll see you then!
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